Today was a rough day for me. God revealed so many things to me that I was previously completely oblivious to. It started out with the absolute smallest thing in the world that completely flipped my entire day around.
Short story long, as I usually do, I checked to see who unfollowed me on twitter that day. Today, one of my favorite band members from a band I’ve been close with for a few years now unfollowed me. Now, if you know me at all, you know how important this band is to me. I flew halfway across the country to see them because they weren’t touring in my state… Yeah, they’re that important. I was shocked and hurt at the same time, because he didn’t unfollow any other fans, just me.
I figured it was because of how much I tweet about Jesus, but then I remembered that he’s a Christ follower so he shouldn’t mind my tweets. I started to become extremely insecure with my account as a whole. Do I preach Jesus too much? Am I really that annoying? The insecurities of my social media soon turned into insecurities in basically every aspect of life. Friends, family, my church… I felt like the entire weight of the world was just placed on my shoulders. All because of that one petite, insignificant thing.
Ever since the last time I saw the guys in September, I’ve been feeling such a strong conviction from God. I need to let go.
This band has given me the absolute most incredible memories that I will remember until the day I die, but they simply cannot spiritually offer me a single thing. This may seem so insignificant to you, but let me tell you, this band has brought me through some dark and heavy times. The vocalist is actually the one who lead me to Christ. They were my lifeline.
God has placed me in a season of letting go and I’m not going to lie, it’s rough. Letting go of something I’ve clung to for years is rough. Letting go of my own personal desires and clinging to His is rough. Letting go of my old ways is rough. But He has me on such a specific destination that if I take a wrong turn, I will get so lost with no idea where I’m going.
If it doesn’t offer anything for my own personal spiritual growth, no matter how hard it may be, I’m letting it go completely. And as this season continues, I’m sure God will reveal to me more and more things I need to let go.
Anything that I have to lose to become closer with Christ is not a loss, it’s a gain. I’m on this earth for a fraction of a second and I refuse to waste my time on a single thing that doesn’t draw me closer to His Kingdom. If it doesn’t offer me anything spiritually, I want nothing to do with it. I’m absolutely sick of the enemy using these things to distract me from reaching my full potential. I refuse to continue to put Christ on the backburner and make Him nothing but my top, my only priority.
I know that if I remain obedient and continue to let go of old things, He will replace them with new, bigger and better things. Things that can actually lead me closer to His Kingdom.
We are living in a time where we cannot be lukewarm. We cannot refuse to make sacrifices for the Lord because it’s “too hard” to let go. We cannot continue to put Him on the backburner. We cannot continue viewing His Word as anything but our lifeline. Live by it. Share it with others. It’s our blueprint for life.
It’s so crucial to the world as a whole for us Christ followers to step up and to be vessels for the Kingdom and strive to be as Christ-like as possible, which requires endless sacrifices. Completely giving up your former self to be created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness (Ephesians 4:22-24).
Don’t expect God to bless you if you are making no attempt to bless Him. If you’re doing nothing to further His Kingdom but still expect Him to pour blessings over you, sorry for the wake up call, but that’s not how God works. Why expect Him to pour Himself out onto us when we refuse to pour ourselves out onto Him?
I’m letting go of my own selfish desires.
I’m letting go of my insecurities and making myself secure in Christ.
I’m letting go of toxic people that need to be removed from my life.
I’m letting go of the need to be accepted by the world.
I’m letting go of my ungratefulness towards God.
I refuse to do anything from this moment forward but to cling to nothing but His goodness and truth. With every sacrifice comes a blessing. But the thing about God is, Christ is already a big enough blessing, but He still continuously desires to pour out more and more blessings over our lives when we remain obedient to Him. What a gracious God we serve.
I may look foolish to the world, but great is my reward in Heaven. I don’t know about you, but I want so many rubies that God has to extend my crown because they won’t all fit.
I’m so grateful that God revealed so much because of something so little. It genuinely goes to show that when we wholeheartedly seek Him, we will always find Him. When we are listening, He will speak. From the little things to the big, He is always wanting to teach us something new.
“Peter said, “Behold, we have left our own homes and followed You.” And He said to them, “Truly I say to you, there is no one who has left house or wife or brothers or parents or children, for the sake of the kingdom of God, who will not receive many times as much at this time and in the age to come, eternal life.”‘ // Luke 18:28-30
“So then, none of you can be My disciple who does not give up all his own possessions.” // Luke 14:33
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Nadia, this is so real! Jesus calls us to give up everything to be with him. It doesn’t mean we won’t feel the loss, but it will be worth it in the end. Looking forward to reading more from you!